I'm feeling really good, physically and emotionally. My milk came in full force last Thursday. Oy! That's a pain I always tend to forget about. They are finally starting to ease up today, thankfully! I've lost about 15 of the 46 pounds I gained so far. Hopefully the weight won't decide to stay for the long haul!! I will be working to get rid of the weight as soon as my doc allows me to. I will have my checkup in 2 weeks, so I can return to work by 4/16.
The first day home was an emotional one for me, even for Brad. I couldn't even talk about the delivery without crying. It was such a miraculous moment, that tears just came every time I thought about it. I can talk about it now just fine. I never had that maternal feeling with Baby D. I never had that longing to have him here at home with me. He felt like he was a close friend's baby that I was meeting and I was completely okay with handing him back to his parents. I surely don't miss having to be sleep deprived with middle of the night feedings and hearing a newborn crying. :) Since I don't have a newborn to take care of during my 3 weeks off work, I feel like I'm healing faster. I am getting enough sleep and not worried about a new baby and all that comes with him. I'm not getting that anxious feeling before bedtime like I had gotten with my own kids. I love my sleep, as I
When people ask me how I'm doing, I have a feeling they don't fully believe me when I say I am good, great even! I just hate how it seems some people expect me to be a complete mess. I'm truly the opposite. I feel so gosh darn happy that I was able to grow a healthy baby and help create a family! Surrogacy isn't for everyone. There isn't a more true statement out there. I believe I was made for this. God gave me the ability to carry and birth children relatively easily, which I LOVE! I, in turn, was able to help someone else. Amazing! Sibling journey or Round 2 in the future?? Who knows...only time will tell!! ;) I want to thank every one of you who supported us throughout the last 2+ years since our surrogacy journey first began. XOXO
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Just awesome!!! Glad you're healing up well and getting some sleep. I, too, had the anxiety before bedtime when R was a newborn and it was awful. I remember getting so anxious I would feel nauseous. Anyway, I could totally see how you would go into this pregnancy with the right mindset (that you are the oven for someone else's bun!) and then be so happy (and not a complete mess) with things afterward. You WERE made for this! Much love to you!
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