Thursday, June 23, 2011

Hoping

I am hoping to hear back from the agency next week regarding the contract.  I just wish I could fast-forward a bit!  :)  I can't, so I'm trying my best to be patient.  I have a feeling things will pick up on here once the contract is signed.  Until I have more to report, buh-bye!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Comment or no comment?

"It's your decision" and "You are the one that's going to have to live with it".  That was what I was told yesterday.  Nice, huh?  Yes, it is my decision and my mind is made up (has been for a few years).  Yes, I will live with and take pride in knowing I had a magnificent role in helping make a couple a family.  I would have loved your support, but see that it just isn't going to happen. 

It's all fine and dandy when people tell me their views on surrogacy, good or not-so-good.  However, don't try belittleing me and telling me the surrogacy is going to ruin my life, my family and my marriage.  I will not, under any circumstances, try to sway your views after this.  If it happens, it happens.  (I can always hope, right?)  How are you going to react towards me when I am actually pregnant? 

In my heart, I knew this would happen, but had honestly hoped for the opposite.  You are not going to TRY to drain my happiness and excitement any longer.  If you try, I will simply walk away.  I don't need that feeling of disapproval and almost, dare I say it, disgust being vented towards me when I'm doing something that I'm so extremely passionate about.  Parental support would have seemed like a natural thing, especially when it's making your child happy.

Deep cleansing breath!  In and out!  Okay, moving on...

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Contract

The contract has been written.  It's in D & S's hands.  Hopefully things go smoothly in regards to that.  So, not a whole lot new going on. 

Monday, June 6, 2011

Prenatals

I received my first bottle of prenatal vitamins from the agency today...wow, that means this is really happening!  Hopefully the contract phase goes smoothly.  We had a family thing this weekend and I was pleasantly suprised that I was approached by almost every aunt/uncle there regarding the surrogacy.  It was the first time I'd seen them in person since I told everyone.  They were all so supportive and made me feel even more excited about this wonderful journey.  Thank you all!!!

Just thinking out loud:  I really hate it when people assume things, especially if you haven't been keeping daily contact with them and they then think the surrogacy must not be progressing.  Then when they find out, they get all upset.  It had been THREE days!!  I am sorry, I truly am.  But instead of coming to you, they tell EVERYONE else BUT you of their concerns, making us both look foolish.  I need to have a chat with them to make sure they understand what is going on.  I'm sure it's just because of the uncertainty and dissapproval they have for the whole experience but it still irks me.  Again, I know not everyone will agree and that's okay.  I'll probably say this a thousand more times throughout this whole experience.  I am happy.  My husband is happy.  D&S are happy.  That is what matters! 

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

We have a MATCH!!!

Yay!!  I'm so excited to tell you that we are officially matched with D&S!!!!  I almost can't contain myself!  The next step is to get the contract drawn up and looked over by our attorneys.  I'm so happy that this is happening and so happy to be able to help this absolutely wonderful couple!  I don't even know what to say, I'm so tickled!  :)