Monday, September 29, 2014

Negative Beta

Well, it is what I suspected.  The transfer did not take.  I'm so very heartbroken for G&M... I had a bit of a sobfest last night.  I wanted it to work so badly for them.  They have just a few frozen embryos left and may decide to give it one last try.  We will have to wait and see though.  Please send healing thoughts/prayers to them.  They need comfort.  I am okay, just so, so sad for them.  I know there was nothing else I could do to have made it stick.  I just pray they are okay.

Friday, September 26, 2014


Well, our beta is Monday morning, bright and early.  I am feeling a bit down.  I do not think the little embryo took.  I'm not seeing any positives on home tests.  With a 5 day embryo, I should be seeing positives by now.  I'm not feeling like I normally do when I first get pregnant.  I feel like G&M know this, too, as I haven't emailed them yet with "awesome news".  I will let you all know what we find out Monday.  Still praying for a late bloomer...

Monday, September 22, 2014

Moving along

I have been so busy lately trying to catch up from being gone 2 days for transfer last week.  All of our travels went very well.  Flights were on time for the most part.  We even got bumped up to "economy plus" on one leg, which was awesome!  It was great to have like 6 inches of extra leg room!

We got to PA around midnight.  Transfer was the next afternoon.  They ended up thawing 3 embryos.  One didn't make it.  Another was stalled and wouldn't progress.  The last one was moving along quite well.  We decided to put back the last one, which was a 5 day blast that was starting to hatch.  When we transferred 2 years ago, it was only divided this little blast was waaaay beyond Baby D's and had divided more times than we could count.  Transfer went very well, no issues whatsoever.

We chilled in our awesome hotel room afterwards, which happened to be the same hotel as last time.  The hotel provides light dinners Monday through Thursday.  So, we joined G&M and were able to munch on some wings and snacks and chat for a few hours.  We then had pizza again like before.  M seemed to want to repeat all that we did the last time - if one of those things could have been our good luck!  :)  I kinda felt the same way though.  It was all good.  After watching Fast & Furious 4, Brad and I went back to our hotel room.  We ended up watching Dallas Buyers Club.  It was a good movie.  Then we snoozed till morning, had a big breakfast at the hotel and flew out after lunchtime.

We are praying this little guy/gal stuck.  I had labs to check my hormone levels today.  Those came back great.  Family and friends are asking when I find out if it took.  I tell them we have our official blood/beta test on Monday 29th, but I, myself, will know well before then!  ;)  I will be testing at home....obviously!  What surro doesn't test before beta!?  LOL.  I HOPE to tell G&M some awesome news in just a few days!!

Please keep up the sticky thoughts and prayers for the little guy/gal to stick it out for 9 months!  Keep G&M in your thoughts as well.  I can only imagine how they are feeling at this moment.  I will keep you posted!  Thank you all for your support.  It means to world to us!!

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Ready or not?

With the ultrasound looking great, I anxiously awaited my bloodwork results.  I got the call from the nurse that afternoon.  She said everything looked great and that we are all scheduled for transfer on 9/17/14!  I screamed a little inside, but simply said, "That's great!".

I am soooo happy to only have 2 more Lupron injections.  This drug is not very all.  I had nasty headaches last time.  This time, I have bladder spasms.  Yes, you read that right - bladder. spasms.  Apparently around 3% of people get them while taking Lupron.  It just so happens that I am in that measly 3%.  These are so unpleasant and uncomfortable, as you can imagine!!!  It's happening about every 20-30 seconds, literally.  I'm praying the spasms go away after I finish the medicine.

We move on to the big boys on Friday - the PIO injections in my rear.  This is the one that my hubby gives me each morning with the honkin 1.5 inch needle.  He will continue giving them to me until we are through the first trimester.  My upper tush on both sides will be quite tender for awhile.  I think I was sore for about 3 months after the final injection last time.  A midst my complaining, it is ALL totally and completely worth it.  I do what I have to do in order to help these amazing people have another baby.  I feel it's such a teensy price to pay to get the amazing outcome of a new little life.  The looks on their faces when D was born is something I will never forget.  I knew absolutely immediately that I would do it again.  And here we are!!  That's all there is to it.

If I don't write before the big day, please send happy, sticky thoughts and/or prayers for all of us and that little embryo that will be thawing and rapidly growing before we even get to PA.  I'm hoping things go as smoothly as last time.  Thank you all for your support.  It means the world to us!!!  Love you!

Monday, September 8, 2014

Lining Check

I went today to get labs and an ultrasound to check my lining.  I always get nervous at this point, wondering if the meds are actually doing what they are supposed to be doing.  I get up on the table, naked from the waist down, covered up in a sheet and await the doctor.  She comes in and remembers me from when I was there when we were cycling for Baby D.  She starts the ultrasound and says, "Your lining is beautiful, triple striped, just perfect!  You are definitely ready!".  YAY!!  So, if my labs are where they need to be, I think we will be right on track for embryo transfer Wednesday, September 17th!!  That is next week!  EEEK!  I'm so excited!!  :)