Bummed beyond belief

I'll just make this short.  Our beta was negative.  I knew it would be.  I never got a positive home test at all.  I didn't feel pregnant.  I didn't get the sore boobs and nausea I was hoping to get.  Yeah, hoping to get those....only someone who loves being prego would say that.  I'm so sad, upset, mad....I know I did all I could, but I still feel like crap.  I'm mostly heartbroken for G&M.  I wanted this for them so badly.  G&M have no more embryos.  This was their final chance and it didn't work out.  :( Please pray for peace for them.

Smooth Transfer

The hubs and I returned home last night from our transfer in PA.  We left Sunday afternoon.  Flights were on time both directions.  They were even early both legs on the way home.

It was great to see G&M again.  They seemed quite nervous...who could blame them?  The clinic had thawed the 3 embryos on Thursday.  All 3 survived the thaw.  Yay!!  Then it was on to the dividing and growing part.  Two stalled at the cellular stage and wouldn't progress.  The clinic thawed their very last blast that was refrozen from last time.  It was progressing nicely, along with the remaining one that was thawed first.  We had decided at the beginning of this cycle to put 2 back if 2 survived.  That is exactly what we did.

The ambiance was completely different this time.  I find it hard to describe.  Everyone seemed so calm, almost surreal.  I don't know.  We all said we feel good about it this time.  It definitely felt different.  I'm praying one sticks!!  This is their final chance at having a sibling for D.  They say they know they are truly blessed to have D, of course, but would LOVE to have another one.  I'm hoping I can help them with that!  :)

I should know by Sunday or Monday via home tests if one of these little guys stuck.  Please send sticky thoughts, prayers, happy thoughts, whatever you do.  ALL of us would greatly appreciate it.  Please also send prayers for G&M.  I can't imagine all the emotions going on in their hearts right now.  They need comfort to ease the stress of all this, as it can't be easy for them.  Thank you all for your support again!

Good to go!

I went last Friday for labs and ultrasound to check my hormone levels and lining.  The results showed I was about to ovulate....not sure why they thought I wouldn't since I was only on estrogen.  I had to run to the pharmacy after work Friday to get some ganirelix injections.  This medicine puts your body in a holding pattern so you don't ovulate.

I had a checkup for labs and ultrasound yesterday to make sure I didn't ovulate.  I am always so nervous with these things.  You just never know what's going on in your body until you see it on that monitor and get the lab results.  I'm happy to say that all is good and we are still on track for transfer MONDAY!!  Woot!!  I'm so thankful the medicine did what it needed to do.

My hubby gave me my first (of many, hopefully!!) progesterone in oil injection in my butt this morning.  He mumbled, "I don't know why you make me do this to you." after it was all done.  LOL! He usually does a great job and I barely feel the giant 1.5 inch needle going in.  I did feel it this morning though.  Eeek!

We are praying for at least one embryo to survive the thaw.  They are starting the thaw tomorrow, in order to get them to be 5 day blasts for the day of the transfer.  Please pray and send happy, sticky thoughts for the entire process.  Also, please keep G&M in your hearts.  This is likely their last chance at bringing home a sibling for their little D!!  No pressure, right!?

Meds

We have started meds once again.  This time, however, I am NOT taking Lupron!  I am so happy about that!  As long as all goes well with my lining and hormone levels, transfer is set for November 3rd.  It will be here before we know it!  :)  Excited and staying positive!!

Round 2

So, after taking a little time to grieve and hate the world, G&M have decided to give it another go!  I actually start birth control pills tomorrow and have initial labwork done.  I'm so happy they decided to try again.  I pray it all goes well.  This is more than likely their last shot at adding to their family. They say they are so, so blessed with D, of course, but would love to have another little in their home.   Praying for smooth sailing and calm nerves for G&M, as they will probably be on pins and needles even more so than last time.  The roller coaster ride is back!  :)