Disappointment

So I told my dad today.  It was what I expected and why I was worried to tell him.  My step-mom, on the other hand, seemed very supportive.  She even gave me a hug and I don't think she's much of a "huggy" person.  Dad didn't say a whole lot and didn't look at me much.  It made me feel like I was 8 years old and had just done something bad, like I was going to get punished.  I know it's a lot to take in.  Maybe he just needs to process everything...who knows.

I'm not going to let it get to me though.  I know that this is what I want to do.  I have wanted to do this for years now. To all who don't agree with surrogacy, that's okay.  You don't have to.  Everyone is intitled to their own opinion.  I'm not going to try to change your mind. 

I know what it's like to lose 2 babies.  Luckily, I have been able to concieve and carry to term (and then some!) four times.  I wouldn't even know how to feel if I was not able to carry or concieve.  I do know how difficult it was for me when I had both of my losses.  That was a pain so profound, I can't imagine how those who have had 10+ losses even continue trying.  I feel so deeply for those who are unable to have children.  My heart breaks for them.  I want to be able to help a person/couple have the child they have longed for.  It just doesn't seem right that some people can and some can't.  I feel that since I can, why not do this and give the ulitmate gift to someone who desires to be a parent so much?