YAY!

The phone call went really well.  D&S seems like a wonderful couple.  D has quite a sense of humor!  He speaks English pretty well, but S doesn't at all.  His accent is mighty thick, but I can understand him.  I think things went well.  We agreed on the major things and he made me feel quite at ease.  I was so nervous at the start, but ended feeling really good.  I hope, hope, hope they feel the same way.  I just loved hearing them speak in Italian back and forth - such a beautiful language.  So, now they discuss if we could be a match for them and I wait to hear back from the agency....Oh, and I suppose I should tell Brad, I mean, talk to Brad about how I think they would be a good match for US.  :)

Relief

I found out last night that my dad was just pretty shocked when I told him about our venture.  That's such a relief.  I'm glad he is okay with it.  That made me feel much better! 

Now, just to get through the "meeting" phone call that will begin in less than 3 hours....getting more nervous by the minute! 

Call Rescheduled

The phone call has been rescheduled for Wednesday.  Hopefully nothing comes up and we hit it off!  I'm very excited to "meet" them!  I will update after the call.  Wish me luck!!

No call today.

I just received a call from my agency.  They said D & S will not be able to do the phone call today due to an emergency that came up.  I hope everything is okay!!  I guess we will try to reschedule for next week sometime.  Alas, more waiting...

Emails!

I just sent a mass email to my family and friends who were not aware of our journey.  I'm extremely nervous about how people will react.  I just hope that they support us.  If you are reading this now...thank you and I love you!  :)

Disappointment

So I told my dad today.  It was what I expected and why I was worried to tell him.  My step-mom, on the other hand, seemed very supportive.  She even gave me a hug and I don't think she's much of a "huggy" person.  Dad didn't say a whole lot and didn't look at me much.  It made me feel like I was 8 years old and had just done something bad, like I was going to get punished.  I know it's a lot to take in.  Maybe he just needs to process everything...who knows.

I'm not going to let it get to me though.  I know that this is what I want to do.  I have wanted to do this for years now. To all who don't agree with surrogacy, that's okay.  You don't have to.  Everyone is intitled to their own opinion.  I'm not going to try to change your mind. 

I know what it's like to lose 2 babies.  Luckily, I have been able to concieve and carry to term (and then some!) four times.  I wouldn't even know how to feel if I was not able to carry or concieve.  I do know how difficult it was for me when I had both of my losses.  That was a pain so profound, I can't imagine how those who have had 10+ losses even continue trying.  I feel so deeply for those who are unable to have children.  My heart breaks for them.  I want to be able to help a person/couple have the child they have longed for.  It just doesn't seem right that some people can and some can't.  I feel that since I can, why not do this and give the ulitmate gift to someone who desires to be a parent so much?